Nerves…

To tell you honestly, I don’t know if I really should blog about this, but I just can’t contain myself. Last night, I just couldn’t sleep. It was already 3 in the morning but my mind was still racing. There were so many questions in my mind! Anxiety attack? Well, you can call it that. I thought to fix myself a drink to keep me calm, but that didn’t work. So what was I so worried about?

Last week, I got a call from someone asking me if I’m free to be scheduled for interview (for a job opportunity), of course, I said yes. And because I was so eager, I even asked to be scheduled with the EARLIEST time slot. Darn. That was stupid.

Sure I finally was able to sleep, but I still got the nerves. As that day approaches, I feel that I’m getting more and more nervous. Why should I? It’s just an interview?! I asked myself, why am I like this? The interview isn’t a big deal.

Well, I think I know the answer. I guess I wanted this so bad that I don’t want to f*ck it up. Worse comes to worst, I might have to stay “here” a little bit longer. But this opportunity is just undeniable. I feel like it’s a “now-or-never” moment. Either I jump in, or be left behind.

I hope everything will be smooth sailing in time for the holidays. Speaking of which, what a coincidence! Today’s the start of the BER-months!

Wish me luck!!!